we learn to LIVE, & live to DIE, just accept and don't ask WHY

xskinnyispretty @ 2009-04-11T20:21:00

2009-04-12T00:27:38Z

just got back home from panama city beach, florida...i was on spring break =]
i had soo much fun but i drank sooo much freaking alcohol = carbs...grrr
so i'm starting a fast for this week but tomorrow is easter and i know my fam will make me eat
but at most i'll only eat a salad....i have to control myself

prom is in a week...this friday!!! i'm soo excited and my dress is gorgeous
what i like best about it is that is a SIZE 0 =] haha
all my other friend's dresses are like size 4 & 6 but not me

anyone else what to fast with me?!?
let me now, we'll keep each other going =]

help

2008-11-29T08:36:36Z

oh so ya i'm new.....
if anyone could help me figure out how to navigate this, that would be great =]
and be my friend!!!

my first post =]

2008-11-29T08:33:16Z

ok, well i'm nicole and i've been suffering with ana and mia since as long as i can remember...i've waken up everyday to a person i don't recognize as my own, the girl in the mirror isn't me. i hate the battle, i hate having to decide if the next day is worth seeing, but in the end i have to tell myself it is. something will get better...right? hope is want keeps me going. i hope to be feel, i hope to laugh, i hope to smile, i hope to enjoy, i hope to live...i hope to be skinny...its a sad hope when you thing about it, being skinny....what's the point exactly? well being skinny for me means power and control, beauty, purity...it reflects everything i've ever wanted to be. i never asked or wished to have an ed, but i have it, and i have to live with it...i just wish people could understand.
well now that thats done....
my status!!!!

cw: 116.5
hw: 129.5
lw: 100

gw1: 110
gw2: 105
gw3: 100